WOMAN

Let me share with you the first verse that God used to speak to me. It was 2001; I was driving home from VCF, Galleria after attending ‘Shadows of the Supernatural’ I was crying in the car and praying to God saying, “I’m YOURS, I’m YOURS, my heart, mind, body, soul, and strength. I’m YOURS! I will not sleep till you speak to me.” When I got home and was getting ready for bed I reached out for my Bible and started reading in Ezekiel.

“But I came by and saw you there, helplessly kicking about in your own blood. As you lay there, I said, ‘Live!’ And I helped you to thrive like a plant in the field. You grew up and became a beautiful jewel. Your breasts became full, and your body hair grew, but you were still naked. And when I passed by again, I saw that you were old enough for love. So I wrapped my cloak around you to cover your nakedness and declared my marriage vows. I made a covenant with you, says the Sovereign Lord, and you became mine.”
Ezekiel 16:6-8 (NLT)

I was in awe of my Father; He never fails to amaze me. This was the night I felt Him say ‘ENOUGH’ and He showed me His standard for my life. God renewed my mind and taught me what it means to be a woman: delicate, fair, gentle, graceful, ladylike, maidenly, modest, pure, refined, sensitive, shy, soft, tender, virgin. I love that last word, virgin; I cried out to God and asked Him to explain to me how I can be a virgin since I have a son out of wedlock. God said there is no purity apart from the blood of Christ. He is Almighty, Sovereign and He is my Father. I never felt so safe.

In order for us to know and understand what it means to be a woman, we first need to know the One who made her.

I am a living testimony of God’s faithfulness, goodness and grace. I am a work in progress and He has called me to speak life into the lives of women who are broken hearted, who are living an aimless life, who need to regain their identity in God.

This is my Kingdom Dream and once more my Father would lavish me with His love, all for the glory of His name.

Martin and I are now meeting students in Macquarie University, Sydney every week for English Conversation Group and Small group.

My season of waiting is over…God has fulfilled His promise to me. He arranged a beautiful life for Martin, Kyle and me. I match made in the Philippines, fulfilled in Australia.

Vision June 2007

"For still the vision awaits its time; it hastens to the end; it will not fail. If it seems slow, I will wait for it. It will surely come. It will not delay. Therefore, I have a sense of destiny."
Habakkuk 2:3

The Lord's Answer
"Look at the nations and watch--and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told." Habakkuk 1:5

Father, I am in awe of you. "Your love is extravagant, your friendship...intimate. I find I'm moving to the rhythym of your grace. Your fragrance is intoxicating in the secret place. Your love is extravagant...You captured my heart again."

"If I found favor in Your sight, O Lord
Don't pass your servant by,
Let my tears wash your feet and my praises towel them dry
Come sit under the tree of my worship
Come feed on my offered soul
For I will sit in Your presence
I will sit in Your presence
Lord, Your countenance makes me whole."

Father, I want to lavish you with my love. And just by abiding to You I am filled to an overflowing of Your peace, I am filled with Your love, I am filled with Your joy. Show me Your ways, teach me Your paths, guide me in Your truth and teach me. You are my God and Savior.

I pray for the women that you will bring into my life. Thank you for the grace to build relationship with them. I ask for the fruit of the Spirit to be upon me. Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness and self-control. Thank you that you will breath life into each one of them. Thank you that you will bring freedom in their lives. Thank you that you will inspire them to love you. Thank you that you will fill them with so much hope overflowing that they will love and serve you all the days of their lives. Bless them and draw them closer to you, in the name of Jesus.

Prophecy September 2006

The Lord is saying to you, Even as your inner beauty, the Lord is seeing that inner beauty right now,the Lord is saying He is pleased with your faith,He is pleased with your posture before Him and that posture is humility, a posture of brokenness before Him, I thank you God I see a woman who's very dependent on God, i see a woman who relies on God, i see a woman who trusts God in every decision she makes.I see a woman who is on fire for God and passionate for God.And the Lord is saying, I will use you in more ways than one. Even God's going to use you to disciple a lot of women.The Lord is saying God's going to open doors for you.God's going to give you influence and favor among women.You're even going to speak to women of influence, says God because of that heart of humility and passion before me, The Lord is going to begin to open doors for you, I don't know what you do Rose but God's going to use you to disciple women in government, women in public offices, says God. God's going to give you that influence, that favor. You may not understand sometimes their problems, you may not understand it but God's going to give you that word of wisdom, word of knowledge before Him. God's going to even let you see somehow behind closed doors.And God's going to give you insight into the problems of these women.And the Lord is saying I will use that double-edged sword,one for correcting but one also for encouragement. The Lord is saying God's going to use you to bring healing into the lives of these women.The same healing that God has done in your life, the same affection, the same compassion that you have seen in your life, how God related to you, how God has healed you, how God has molded you,how God has delivered you, how God has been merciful and compassionate and forgiving and loving towards you. The same compassion and love, that you're going to show to these women. The Lord is saying Many are the plans in a man's heart but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails. And God's purpose will prevail in your life, and the Lord is saying He will even spread a table before you, before your enemies. Basta, God is going to protect you, God is going to expose the work of the enemy, malayo pa lang God's going to expose it, God's going to derail the plans of the enemy in your life. You will see the deliverance, you will see My hand in your life, says God.

Rose, the Lord would say unto you, My daughter, You are like a pearl to Me, where as you realize a pearl is only a piece of sand wedged in the oyster. This similar process has taken place with you. Yes, you are one who feels, Lord, I have so much needs, I have so many issues, but yet as you have reached out and ministered and given of yourself. Know My daughter that I have been the one who has been taking care of everything that you have, of all your needs. And know My daughter even at this time, in this season that you are in, I'm beginning to really like never before manifest and establish the things that you are not certain about. I mean there has been a joy, there has been a faithfulness about it. But it seems like nothing really concrete or clear has ever come up. And it's kind of like, Lord, what exactly or where exactly and how exactly do i fit in or even what do you have in store for us in the coming future? And things pertaining to that I'm going to begin to really show you like never before. And for so long you've been trying to play catch up and you've always had to second guess yourself. Lord, what about the mistakes, what about this, and the Lord is saying I am bringing you into a season where I'm changing all that,and I am opening new doors, new opportunities, and it has already been said, new relationships, and prominent places. And yes my daughter, I am going to restore to you what the enemy has stolen, and not only restore to you, but I'm going to multiply and expand the influence and just the things that I am desiring to do in you and through you.So be expectant, be excited because I have so much more things in store for you. Do not settle, do not come to a place where I'm okay here Lord, do not be comfortable in that place but continue to challenge yourself, continue to reach for the sky, because I have so much more in store for you.

Lord, we thank you for Rose, we seal every word now God and we thank You God You've given her divine connections, divine appointments, and Lord, people in high places, and so on and so forth, that You're going to use her to influence and impact them. And I thank you that you are doing something even in her family, Lord. That Lord You are doing multiple things in her life, in her situation. And so we seal every Word now, we thank You for it in Jesus name. Amen.

Dream

I had a dream last night...Martin and I were about to get in the car but there were no doors nor any roof. It was a strange car because there were only two seats and some room at the back for bags. We found ourselves in a place filled with people from different parts of the world and it looked like they never actually sleep. They kept on working and working and there seem to be no rest in the place. We got some plastic bags and as we were about to leave I saw Kyle playing outside the streets and it was midnight already. I sat him down in our car and told him that his bedtime is 8pm. If he were to disobey us I asked him, "how can we protect you from the enemy lurking outside the streets?" He said he will obey and stay off the streets.

The next scene was in an enclosed room. We were doing an MTV of the song, "I'm Free." The lyrics goes something like this, Where the Spirit of the Lord is there is freedom... I will walk in your freedom, walk in your liberty... I'm free, I'm free. After finishing the song we were heading home and as we were packing our things I kept on asking Martin where his keys were. He said it's with him and I asked, "If it was with you how come I could hear the sound of the keys outside the room." Someone was actually playing with it. I immediately thought of the devil. Martin opened the door of the room and he pulled a kid inside the room and he went outside. I said to the kid, In the name of Jesus...and I woke up so thirsty.

It was 2am when I woke up and I couldn't go back to sleep. I woke up Martin to pray for me. In my head I kept on praying and doing warfare for our family and for the people we were reaching out to. I saw people with no faces and I kept on crying out to God to save them. It wasn't until 330am that I was able to fall asleep.

"Let the beloved of the Lord rest secure in Him for He shields him all day long, and the one the Lord loves rests between His shoulders."

I am thankful for Liz who prayed for me, it was the middle of the day in Maine when she received my sms.

Lord, after that experience last night it made me long for more of you in my life. I seek after you, I long for you to reveal yourself to me in a more intimate way. Father, I know that never will you leave me. never will you forsake me. Into your hands I commit my spirit.

The Measure of A Man

What is the measure of a man? Is he suppose to be single or married? If married, does he have to have children? Is he suppose to be a good provider? Is he suppose to be there for his wife and children to love and protect them. Protect them from what? Protect them from the enemy.

To whom much is given, much is required.

What you don't know can hurt you. "Ignorance is costly."

Father, give us the wisdom we need.

What is the measure of a man? Is failure an option in his life? Is he destined for greatness? A man needs accountability with God and with his family and friends. A man needs integrity, doing what is right even when it hurts. A man needs leadership, The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom but fools despise knowledge.

What is the measure of a man? A man needs to retreat to the wilderness and be alone with his God. A man knows when to work and when to rest. Rest time is repair time.

THE WILL OF GOD

The will of God will never take you,

Where the grace of God cannot keep you.

Where the arms of God cannot support you,

Where the riches of God cannot supply your needs,

Where the power of God cannot endow you.

The will of God will never take you,

Where the spirit of God cannot work through you,

Where the wisdom of God cannot teach you,

Where the army of God cannot protect you,

Where the hands of God cannot mold you.

The will of God will never take you,

Where the love of God cannot enfold you,

Where the mercies of God cannot sustain you,

Where the peace of God cannot calm your fears,

Where the authority of God cannot overrule for you.

The will of God will never take you,

Where the comfort of God cannot dry your tears,

Where the Word of God cannot feed you,

Where the miracles of God cannot be done for you,

Where the omnipresence of God cannot find you.

My Papa

I dreamt of my papa last night. I was with a group of friends and I suddenly saw him from the background. He was with an angel and I suddenly tried to capture him with my video camera. He was singing a song to me but I couldn't see his face because it was too dark. I was trying to write down the lyrics of the song...(random phrases i remember) "Shape yourself, don't be afraid, I am here, I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me."

I was crying because I could feel his love and it hurt so much to be away from him. It has been 19 years since he passed away and God has been constantly reassuring me that my papa is with him in heaven. I wasn't there when he passed away but I would blow him flying kisses every night before I go to bed. I would ask God to make sure that my papa received them every night.

It's amazing how I relate to my heavenly Father in a very similar way. I constantly feel my Father's warm love and I know that I know that I know that He is near. In my dream, I was telling myself now I know and receive a husband's love. Now I long for my Father's love, his warm touch. This kind of love is the only thing that will make me whole.

Save the last dance for me, Dad.

Has It Been This Long?

Has it been this long since I wrote in my blog? A whole year has passed and I have overlooked my precious blog! I admit that so much has happened over the last five months. Where do I begin? Ah, from the start of the story...I arrived in Sydney December 16, 2006. I finally received my fiance visa a week before we left Manila. There were alot of Despedida parties and Bridal shower parties. I will treasure them in my heart...and you can view them in www.mademoisellerose.multiply.com Martin and I got married December 26, 2006 at Circular Quay, Sydney. It was a beautiful day with family and friends overlooking the Sydney Harbour Bridge. Althought my family wasn't there I know that they share in my happiness and joy in being united with my beloved. Kyle received Martin as his new dad graciously. Of course, Kyle loves the fact that he has someone to wrestle with everyday. Did I mention that they love hunting for animals in our backyard? The other night Martin found an owl on our washing line and he immediately called us out to our backyard. It was magnificent and Kyle wanted to touch it but it flew away after it saw us getting near.
The suburb we live in has a beautiful neighborhood with the Lane Cove Forest just a couple of blocks from our backyard. Martin and Kyle love bush-walking, there is something about a man that needs to be close to nature.
I wanted to be home for the World Conference this July but when we were asking God and seeking counsel from our pastors and friends, we decided it was wise to settle into our new home first and adjust with the new culture, new ministry, new people in our lives. Things can be overwhelming without the grace of God. I can say since the day I arrived, I only stand on God's grace.
It has been raining here in Sydney today. I was telling Kyle over breakfast that we love the rain because it helps our farmers take care of our fruits and veggies. Kyle asked, "Mummy, is it a perfect day today?" I said, "yes" with a smile. Kyle is such a smart boy. He can do all things through Christ who strengthens him.

Have a lovely day!

To Dream

Lord, please help me dream 10 years from now. What would life be like with Martin and our kids?

What made our wedding day special?

Deuteronomy 12:7 And there you shall eat before the Lord your God, and you shall rejoice in all to which you put your hand, you and your households, in which the Lord your God has blessed you.

Deuteronomy 12:28
Be careful to obey all my commands, so that all will go well with you and your children after you, because you will be doing what is good and pleasing to the Lord your God.

To Dream
When I look back on our wedding day…
I remember the vows, the toasts from our family, the tears, and the presence of our glorious heavenly Father on our wedding day.

When I look ahead 10 years from now and see the life that God has given us I will stand in awe of Him. What do you see? Lord, give me the eyes to see from your perspective.

I see children running around. I see a home full of love, warmth and cheer. I see a father who works for “giving” and not work for a living. I see a dad who loves his wife and children. I see a dad who spends time doing devotions with his children. I see a dad who lives in the center of God’s will. I see a dad who is productive in his work –eagerly doing his job to improve the lives of other people. I see my best friend, my beloved, my co-laborer and my warrior.

OliVeShOoTs

Blessed Motherhood

Proverbs 31:28-31

The last few verses of Proverbs 31 offer an encouraging message: Women who have submitted to God's plan and yielded to the Spirit's transforming work will reap a plentiful harvest. What does this fruitfulness look like?
Verse 28: "Her children rise up and bless her." What a sweet reward it is for mothers to hear adult children say, "We are grateful for the way you raised us." Some might express thanks for their mother's love and acceptance; others might feel appreciative for discipline, prayers, or lessons about how to follow God. Regardless of the words they use, the impact on Mom will be the same: great joy. Sacrifice and hard work are required to raise children the Lord's way, but such a lifestyle will lead to a place of deep satisfaction.
Verse 28: "Her husband also . . . praises her." Spouses know the best and worst about each other. But when women allow the Spirit to change them, He will also prompt husbands to show honor to their wives.
Verse 30:"A woman who fears the Lord . . . shall be praised." Not only do children and husbands acknowledge a mother's value; so does God. He is pleased when she believes Him, follows His plan, and lives unselfishly.
Verse 31: "Let her works praise her." The Lord will cause others to recognize how godly mothers have lived, serving not only their own families but also people in the community. Their example will inspire others to reach out.
Each acclamation a mother receives becomes an opportunity to testify that the Lord accomplished it all. It is exciting to let one\'s life testify to Him!

Spiritual Thought (Emma)

Long have I held your hands and held you in my arms. You've danced with Me for a season and I've taken delight in your heart of passion for Me.

A season has come for Me to give you into the arms of the servant I have you to dance with.

I've long delighted in you and have long been wanting to grant you the desires of your heart. Dance with him as I direct your steps, your every turn and your rhythym. Look to Me as you dance with him. Listen to the pleasure of My heart beating with yours. Hold on to him, let him lead you in the dance as I direct your every turn and strengthen your arms and feet as you faithfully dance to please me. Know that I am pleased. Know that I take delight in you. Know that I am enthralled with the beauty of your heart, your face, of your dance. Dance on dear daughter, dance on until the music of my heart for you has ceased -dance on.

Prophecy for Martin

Saturday, November 06, 2004

Prophecy for Philippines missions trip

Six days before our team left for the Philippines 2004 mission trip, each member of our team received a word from God, only minutes apart, that described each participant and their role both on this trip and in life beyond. What I received follows:

You are the WARRIOR!! Your mighty roar will echo in the spiritual!

The sword you are destined to carry is large, bright and sharp. The blade itself casts fear and commands respect. And this particular sword was designed especially for you!!

God has put a warrior spirit in your heart and spirit. It is the drive you feel inside to take ground. The same drive which fuels your entrepreneurial spirit. It is something innate in you and it's all designed and purposed by God that way. He made you this way!!

I see the warrior spirit in you pushing further than any timid person would... doing whatever it takes to get the job done, never giving up and continually looking for ways to find solutions to impossible situations. Your drive, your strength was given by God so you can do what others can't.

The way the enemy will attack you is through disappointment and so-called failures. With each disappointment, parts of your backbone are stolen away. Every hurt takes a bit more of your strength until eventually, you have no backbone and no more fight left in you. This is exactly what the enemy wants! But God has a plan for you!!

1Cor 10:13 "... and God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted (or trialled) beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted (or trialled or hurt), He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."

There will be times when you have no strength left. Times that you no longer want to fight and just want to sit out and glum out. At these times, remember:

Isaiah 40:31 "but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength" - God has a plan!! Hope in Him.

2Cor 12:9 "My grace is sufficient for you. For in your weakness, my strength is made perfect."

Your miracle will be two fold:

FIRST, you will discover how much fun it is to be a fully empowered warrior!! A warrior that is unleashed and knows their strength and ability.

SECOND, you will find your limits, fall over on them, and then find that God is much much stronger than you. This is a whole new level, a totally different realm of thinking and operating. It's where the gallant warrior truly humbles his great abilities in return for the strength, security and rest that comes from faith in God. Where humility's commands are greater than the sword.

This is a crucial time for you, Marty. As you know, foundations are the key to a strong building. So now is the time to ground yourself on the truth of God's plan and purpose for you. I'm not talking about activities, jobs, timetables etc. I'm talking about the real Martin, the talents, the ambition, the rumbling roar on the inside. The things that make up who you are. All are designed that way... He designed you this way!!And now the fun starts... because you're going on a missions trip to use all the talents you've been given. And better yet... and it will hit you hard... it's all part of the plan!!

Stay true, young Jedi!

Love Confession

Sonnet XVII

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way than this:
where I does not exist, nor you,so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

Here is my love confession for him. Once again, I am caught in this dream of having him beside me. If only he could stay a bit longer...one more day, one more hour, one more second.

I know no other way to love him but the way my Father has shown me love: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

It may sound a bit silly but this is my story. Once upon a time there was a little girl who loved her Father very much...Does she end up with the man who brings out the best in her? This passion that you have is all-consuming! Oh, sweet!