A Father's Touch

I have the most amazing father! He is so loving and thoughtful and he loves freely. I remember my dad and how it would have been like if he were alive today. I bet he would be just like my father. I love to show and receive affection and if there was a love bank, Keith will be depositing everyday. There's something in your arms makes me want to lose myself, makes me want to lose myself -it feels like home to me. I feel like a little girl everytime he embraces me and it feels as if it's the safest place I can be in. I can stay there forever.

I guess the reason why I love him so is because of the fact that I have such a good relationship with my Father in heaven. And now that I can get a taste of how it is to have an earthly father I just couldn't wait to experience it firsthand.

My favorite is our chats. We could be in the dining room area or the bench outside the train station and have the best conversation ever. It doesn't have to be all too deep a conversation but I love to listen to him talk and what his thoughts are regarding life. One thing I know is that he loves God and lives to know Him more everyday. He is open to new things and listens to new ideas even if sometimes he doesn't entirely agree. I've developed this sense of wanting him happy all the time like when Martin heard from Pastor Sean that I should move to Roy & Maricar's place from Martin's parent's place. Keith was offended and he didn't want me to leave at least not right away. I told Martin he better talk to his dad and apologize because I don't want to see him hurt or sad. Keith talked to Pastor Sean and saw the reason behind it and I was very much relieved to see him happy and back to his usual self.
Tonight's my second night at Roy&Maricar's place and he dropped by to visit me and Martin. He is the sweetest man ever and he loves us very much. I don't think he knows the extent of his love that it binds us together. I love how they have built a home here in Australia and how they have raised up Martin. I'm looking forward to knowing them more in the days to come.

a new season

If our God is for us, who can be against us? I have spent my first week in Sydney feeling sicky and frankly I didn't like it one bit. I wanted to catch the next flight and go home. But of course there is an angel beside me who was speaking and reminding me why I was here. Martin was so patient with me for the last few days we've been together. He was taking care of me and his parents made sure I was as comfortable as possible. I kept on saying to myself who is this man and why was he so passionate about me? I felt isolated from my family and my spiritual family for a while and it was feeling weird -don't want to ever go back to feeling that way again. I have been part of a local church in manila for five years now and it's a first for me to be away from my spiritual family. Not being able to be connected to any of the Christians here was hard enough let alone be sick. Martin was fed up by Friday and he started telling me to get up and we're not going to allow this sickness to defeat you. You have already defeated Satan by the blood of the Lamb and by the power of your testimony and he has no power over you.

Father, here I am at your disposal, have your way in me. You are my refuge, my fortress, my stronghold, my salvation, you are my all. The very reason why I breath, move, cry, sing, and have my being is because of you. I want to know you, I want to be with you and know your will for my life, for this new season in my life. Martin is now part of my life and every decision I make will impact his life too. Give me the wisdom and the understanding to be an equal partner who will love and support him. I want to learn how to be a wife and a woman after God's own heart.