Dream

I had a dream last night...Martin and I were about to get in the car but there were no doors nor any roof. It was a strange car because there were only two seats and some room at the back for bags. We found ourselves in a place filled with people from different parts of the world and it looked like they never actually sleep. They kept on working and working and there seem to be no rest in the place. We got some plastic bags and as we were about to leave I saw Kyle playing outside the streets and it was midnight already. I sat him down in our car and told him that his bedtime is 8pm. If he were to disobey us I asked him, "how can we protect you from the enemy lurking outside the streets?" He said he will obey and stay off the streets.

The next scene was in an enclosed room. We were doing an MTV of the song, "I'm Free." The lyrics goes something like this, Where the Spirit of the Lord is there is freedom... I will walk in your freedom, walk in your liberty... I'm free, I'm free. After finishing the song we were heading home and as we were packing our things I kept on asking Martin where his keys were. He said it's with him and I asked, "If it was with you how come I could hear the sound of the keys outside the room." Someone was actually playing with it. I immediately thought of the devil. Martin opened the door of the room and he pulled a kid inside the room and he went outside. I said to the kid, In the name of Jesus...and I woke up so thirsty.

It was 2am when I woke up and I couldn't go back to sleep. I woke up Martin to pray for me. In my head I kept on praying and doing warfare for our family and for the people we were reaching out to. I saw people with no faces and I kept on crying out to God to save them. It wasn't until 330am that I was able to fall asleep.

"Let the beloved of the Lord rest secure in Him for He shields him all day long, and the one the Lord loves rests between His shoulders."

I am thankful for Liz who prayed for me, it was the middle of the day in Maine when she received my sms.

Lord, after that experience last night it made me long for more of you in my life. I seek after you, I long for you to reveal yourself to me in a more intimate way. Father, I know that never will you leave me. never will you forsake me. Into your hands I commit my spirit.

The Measure of A Man

What is the measure of a man? Is he suppose to be single or married? If married, does he have to have children? Is he suppose to be a good provider? Is he suppose to be there for his wife and children to love and protect them. Protect them from what? Protect them from the enemy.

To whom much is given, much is required.

What you don't know can hurt you. "Ignorance is costly."

Father, give us the wisdom we need.

What is the measure of a man? Is failure an option in his life? Is he destined for greatness? A man needs accountability with God and with his family and friends. A man needs integrity, doing what is right even when it hurts. A man needs leadership, The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom but fools despise knowledge.

What is the measure of a man? A man needs to retreat to the wilderness and be alone with his God. A man knows when to work and when to rest. Rest time is repair time.

THE WILL OF GOD

The will of God will never take you,

Where the grace of God cannot keep you.

Where the arms of God cannot support you,

Where the riches of God cannot supply your needs,

Where the power of God cannot endow you.

The will of God will never take you,

Where the spirit of God cannot work through you,

Where the wisdom of God cannot teach you,

Where the army of God cannot protect you,

Where the hands of God cannot mold you.

The will of God will never take you,

Where the love of God cannot enfold you,

Where the mercies of God cannot sustain you,

Where the peace of God cannot calm your fears,

Where the authority of God cannot overrule for you.

The will of God will never take you,

Where the comfort of God cannot dry your tears,

Where the Word of God cannot feed you,

Where the miracles of God cannot be done for you,

Where the omnipresence of God cannot find you.

My Papa

I dreamt of my papa last night. I was with a group of friends and I suddenly saw him from the background. He was with an angel and I suddenly tried to capture him with my video camera. He was singing a song to me but I couldn't see his face because it was too dark. I was trying to write down the lyrics of the song...(random phrases i remember) "Shape yourself, don't be afraid, I am here, I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me."

I was crying because I could feel his love and it hurt so much to be away from him. It has been 19 years since he passed away and God has been constantly reassuring me that my papa is with him in heaven. I wasn't there when he passed away but I would blow him flying kisses every night before I go to bed. I would ask God to make sure that my papa received them every night.

It's amazing how I relate to my heavenly Father in a very similar way. I constantly feel my Father's warm love and I know that I know that I know that He is near. In my dream, I was telling myself now I know and receive a husband's love. Now I long for my Father's love, his warm touch. This kind of love is the only thing that will make me whole.

Save the last dance for me, Dad.

Has It Been This Long?

Has it been this long since I wrote in my blog? A whole year has passed and I have overlooked my precious blog! I admit that so much has happened over the last five months. Where do I begin? Ah, from the start of the story...I arrived in Sydney December 16, 2006. I finally received my fiance visa a week before we left Manila. There were alot of Despedida parties and Bridal shower parties. I will treasure them in my heart...and you can view them in www.mademoisellerose.multiply.com Martin and I got married December 26, 2006 at Circular Quay, Sydney. It was a beautiful day with family and friends overlooking the Sydney Harbour Bridge. Althought my family wasn't there I know that they share in my happiness and joy in being united with my beloved. Kyle received Martin as his new dad graciously. Of course, Kyle loves the fact that he has someone to wrestle with everyday. Did I mention that they love hunting for animals in our backyard? The other night Martin found an owl on our washing line and he immediately called us out to our backyard. It was magnificent and Kyle wanted to touch it but it flew away after it saw us getting near.
The suburb we live in has a beautiful neighborhood with the Lane Cove Forest just a couple of blocks from our backyard. Martin and Kyle love bush-walking, there is something about a man that needs to be close to nature.
I wanted to be home for the World Conference this July but when we were asking God and seeking counsel from our pastors and friends, we decided it was wise to settle into our new home first and adjust with the new culture, new ministry, new people in our lives. Things can be overwhelming without the grace of God. I can say since the day I arrived, I only stand on God's grace.
It has been raining here in Sydney today. I was telling Kyle over breakfast that we love the rain because it helps our farmers take care of our fruits and veggies. Kyle asked, "Mummy, is it a perfect day today?" I said, "yes" with a smile. Kyle is such a smart boy. He can do all things through Christ who strengthens him.

Have a lovely day!

To Dream

Lord, please help me dream 10 years from now. What would life be like with Martin and our kids?

What made our wedding day special?

Deuteronomy 12:7 And there you shall eat before the Lord your God, and you shall rejoice in all to which you put your hand, you and your households, in which the Lord your God has blessed you.

Deuteronomy 12:28
Be careful to obey all my commands, so that all will go well with you and your children after you, because you will be doing what is good and pleasing to the Lord your God.

To Dream
When I look back on our wedding day…
I remember the vows, the toasts from our family, the tears, and the presence of our glorious heavenly Father on our wedding day.

When I look ahead 10 years from now and see the life that God has given us I will stand in awe of Him. What do you see? Lord, give me the eyes to see from your perspective.

I see children running around. I see a home full of love, warmth and cheer. I see a father who works for “giving” and not work for a living. I see a dad who loves his wife and children. I see a dad who spends time doing devotions with his children. I see a dad who lives in the center of God’s will. I see a dad who is productive in his work –eagerly doing his job to improve the lives of other people. I see my best friend, my beloved, my co-laborer and my warrior.